I met with my dear friend and business partner today for the first time after my journey with the sacrament known as 5MEO.
My partner and I have a great working relationship, he provides the platform, technical support and promotion for our shared inspirations, and I go first and pave the way in the public eye. We prioritize the same process in life of listening to the inspiration of spirit. We both sense the presence of source consciousness in Sacred Geometry and Crop Circles. My way of sharing the intelligence of these universal patterns is to get out in front of people and talk about it, and his way is to provide the technical and emotional support for that process.
I am particularly grateful to him today after meeting up to upgrade my operating system. We have decided that the next platform to begin to share 'my' Crop Circle intelligence is through webinars and videos. This requires many technical components, specifically, video editing capabilities and the operating system to support the program.
We have been steadily and methodically upgrading my system to expand to greater and greater capacity. The analogy to my medicine journey over the past weekend was not lost on me. I am, however, so deep in the process of integration, that his gentle identification of the parallel helped me to grasp the profundity of it. He's good at that kind of profound reflection.
The entheogenic use of psychedelic substances is by nature, a system upgrade. The psychoactive substances are by design, expansive. For most medicinal ceremonies, the analogy would be perfect, with 5MEO, there is a nuance that is missed. Or rather, the mechanism by which the operating system upgrades is less than accurate. With every other psychedelic, the ego/ operating system, remains in tact and is simply enhanced. With the buffo toxin of 5MEO, the system is removed, re-callibrated and returned without a user manual.
There are such extraordinarily delicate adjustments that they are not obvious to the 'naked ego', per se. Everything looks the same, but nothing is the same. All of the code behind the screen has been re-written, and is only evident by the increased processing speed, or subtle shift in icons or text.
For example, this evening is the first time I have been behind a computer in four days and my experience of navigating the on line reality is remarkably different. I have less compulsion, my habituated patterns are not hooking me (no endless loop of youtubes), and I am extremely proficient in my efforts. It's as if the un-necessary programs have been deleted.
My environment looks the same, my physicality has not changed, but my light body is palpably expanded well beyond the confines of my immediate surroundings. My sense of time is completely restructuring. A reality based in synchronicity, intuition and faith is gaining ground as the forerunner of significance. Things that formerly made sense in a linear progressed reality seem relatively silly and inefficient now.
It is simply not possible to explain the journey of ego dissolution that is the 5MEO experience. It is simultaneously sensory expansion and annihilation. It requires being willing to walk into a near death experience, and to tolerate a restructuring of unknown scope and scale. It requires Faith, and a knowing that there is far more than what we see in this 3D reality.
It is an experience of divine source consciousness, and to be honest, once the journey has been taken, everything makes more sense. In fact, it's the only thing that makes sense. The medicine gives access to that which is real, ineffable and eternal. I awoke in day two of my integration process with the deepest knowing that in the choice to journey with this medicine, I am doing what I came here to do. I am connecting with the core of my being beyond any limitation, and I feel a sense of completion on a soul level that is beyond anything I have ever experienced in this life. I am doing what I came here to do, which is to be fully who I am and as such, I have a knowing that everything is going to be okay.
In my morning meditation, feeling the deepest sense of gratitude for my life, I had the strange sense, that if I died today, I would have done what I came here to do. That is a remarkable operating system upgrade.